Can't sleep maybe I should go for a drive.

As I toss and turn in bed I am afraid of what lies ahead. Medical issues stink and I feel like they have got the best of me. At what point do I decide to have a surgery that would enable me to exercise. Should I wait until I have reached my goal or should I do it now? When I heard the news today I wanted to go to food and drinks for comfort. I have mixed emotions and all I want to do cry.

Crash! Boom! Bang!

It has happened. A detour. A huge fork in the road. Decisions to make that will definitely make me have to extend my deadline.

How long until the finish line.

I feel like I am racing against time. I have a deadline for my goal weight. What happens if I don't get there? What if it needs to be extended? I know that I am not a failure because I have done so much already. But, I would feel a sense of losing against time. Every day is a new day and it is hard to remain focused. All of us who have a busy life and do not have the opportunity to go off to some camp just to lose weight have to juggle the challenges that are put in front of us. I thought that I wouldn't have any challenges after being on this journey for over a year. The challenge are different, but still there.

When you are trying to do some thing that is truly difficult for you, you have really know that the fight is worth it. The fight is hard. You get banged up and tossed around. You want to get out of the ring per say and walk away at times. Your support during the beginning of the fight may not be the same as it is in the middle. That is where I find myself........in the middle of this weight loss fight. I know I can't go back and moving forward is the only option. It takes perseverance. It takes real dedication without excuses. It take time. It takes all I have to stay with it. Do I finish this fight I have with weight loss? How long until I am finished?