throwing it out the window

Believe me when I say that tonight was a bit exciting and fearful at the same time. The exciting news that my husband and I threw out nine trash bags of clothes that no longer fit us. Wow!!!!! It seemed as though the clothes we were wearing were baggy on us. The fearful thing is that there are not too many clothes left and we really do have to succeed. The clothes that were comfortable to us are now gone. We can not turn back now.

are you ready to stay in the car for the journey?

Well, the first section of the fitness class is over and Monday will start a new one. There were so many positive things about the class and wanting to promote a better lifestyle. When I started I had so many great intentions. It was awesome that pounds continued to shed off of me. It was great that my heart is in the right place. It is wonderful I was trying to create an atmosphere of health and wellness. It is great that for the majority or us, there was a sense of teamwork and spirit to encourage each other to continue, especially when it was tough. Most people were on board and shared their "huffing and puffing" and their determination. This is what keeps me going and for each person who gets up and does something for better health, I am touched.

There was only one concern I had about the class, well not really the class, but about the frame of mind when people start off doing the class. Sure no one wants to work out hard every day and it would be a great thing if we could talk to our body and wish the unwanted fat away. (Believe me when I say that I wish my arms would listen and that flab of fat hanging like wings would just disappear). There comes a point when we have to realize that a healthier way of life is not just exercise, not just "dieting", and not just our mental positioning about wellness. It is a combination of all these things. It doesn't matter how much you want to help others. I really did learn that if someone is not ready to join the journey or put some investment into doing what we are all doing, then you or I can not get them there. Change is self inititated and self maintained. I have learned that the hard way. I have to accept change even with my program. Things are getting harder for me and if I don't change something, whether it be the intensity or the frequency, I am not going to move down the road and my journey slows down.

So to all of us who are continuing our journey.... we deserve to be proud of ourselves and we must continue to encourage each other, especially through the tougher times. It doesn't matter if we don't write every day. What matters is that everyday we are continuing to think and act upon how and what we are going to do to stay focused our our goals to better health.

starting out on the road for another week

Well, here is the beginning of a new week and I realized that summer is right around the corner. That does not mean I am running to the store to by a new swim suit (nope, not at the level yet. I think I would look too heavy still and I wouldn't want to scare anyone away.) What is means is that time is passing by quickly and I have to stay in check with my goals. It has not been easy lately as issues pop in and out of my life. I have to deal with them and also keep on top of my new way of life. Sometimes that can be hard. The issues seem to become a priority and the focus I had with my weight plan decreases. I have struggled and it has been hard to do the home responsibilities, the work responsibilities, and everything else. It can be stressful. I use my workouts to relieve some of the stress. I have to work on getting myself to the gym or just outside to exercise on the days I am not in the fitness class or private training. When I do not go, I make myself feel guilty and I get upset that I missed an opportunity. I can't miss opportunities if I want to reach my goals. So here is to making the best effort to exercise daily no matter what life decides to throw at me.

still heading in the right direction

Well, today was another weigh in (223 as of today) and it looks like I may get down to ninety pounds lost be the end of May. Can you believe it? This journey has been long and hard. It is only going to continue that way as I try to lose another ninety pounds. I can't believe that so many months have past by already. There have been a lot of challenging days and I need to be driven to continue. The training is getting harder, but today was fun.

In our fitness class, we got to play kickball. Let's see, I think the last time I played was in fourth grade (yes, many moons ago). I had forgotten how to kick a ball properly because my toe is hurting. Anyway, it was hilarious trying to see me run and kick, much less trying to catch the ball. The other people did well and I am always impressed by the coordination these guys show. I think today was the first time I have played any kind of group sport in twenty years. In addition to forgetting how to play, I forgot how much fun you have as a group and how much your body works in what may seem like a simple game. You know, exercising can be fun, especially when you change it up. Next Monday and Wednesday will be tough workouts, but I can wait to see that "fun Friday" is next week.

the class continues

Well, we are now starting the fourth week of our class. I am so pleased to see everyone in the class who is trying their best. This Wednesday will be my first weigh in for May. I am trying to reach 100 pounds lost by the end of May. It is going to be a challenge. Today was mother's day and I took a day to rest and enjoy my family. Funny, my body missed getting up and doing something, but I had a great day! Hope all of you celebrated with your families as well.