OK, OK, Ok! I have been hard on myself since I started dieting. Ask my husband or my trainer. If I can't get something right or I am not loosing weight as fast I think I should, I beat myself up and worry like there is no tomorrow. This is problem because I loose my focus. Am I looking for a way out? No, I am not. I just want everything to go right. I have to learn what I can and can not control.
In the beginning, I could barely control my body movements. My balance was nonexistent. Walking was difficult for more than fifteen minutes. My trainer's words of ..... well, let's just say, he has quite a few depending on what he is trying to get across....but let's take the ones in the title..."this is a process, eat well and rest, please just focus on each day, you will get stronger". I can't roll my eyes or make a remark about these words anymore because he was right. :-) As of now, I do have more control over my body and the way I move. After seven weeks (two of which I was sick), I am doing so much more. For starters, I can run, not real fast, almost a mile nonstop. I can do some jumping jacks (try and picture an overweight person who was totally uncoordinated doing them). Yeah, I know. I was there! As the terrain varies,I still have to look down and concentrate as I move, especially up and down hills or even surfaces. I have been afraid of falling, but I have manage to go around holes in the grass and other things in my way without a guide. This has built some confidence in respect to exercising. Since I feel more comfortable, I try to run or push myself more. I am stronger in relation to the amount weights I use. After I exercise, it is easier for me to catch my breath. My heart is stronger. I am gaining more control over my diet (still working on keeping a better log). Although I worry about the scale less, I still worry about the scale. How do I get past this? I am still trying to figure it out. I do know that this is a process. I have to eat well and get plenty of rest. I have to stay focus each day so I can get better and stonger. I got it!!!
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Wow! What an amazing journey you've been on so far. I've just read your last two posts, and now to read that you're running almost a mile? That's fantastic!!!
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