Sure, everyone talks about their diet, their surgery, their fitness schedule etc. But, how many people come clean on the identifying that emotional component or underlying reason that got them to become overweight. Some may do it within themselves, but hardly out in the open. To release it with others, you have to admit your reason for finding food as a comfort. You have to reveal why reaching for the food and eating it satisfied your emotions. Eating to eat, fast or slow, was comforting. Why? What was it that you needed to deal with at that point in time? Is it a present issue? A previous one? Is it something that needs resolution before you can move on? Is it something that you feel you can't get over? Did something medically happened that has caused you to a set back to start on loosing weight?
If you release it you become vulnerable person. Are you showing weakness? Will you be judged? Are you justified in having them? Right now, I don't know if I can let everyone know right now. I do know that within myself I can recognize and identify the emotional components to my eating. At what point will I feel comfortable in sharing? All I know is that I have to keep my acknowledgment of issues because it helps me stay focused on changing. If I give in and go back to denial or feeding into it, I have lost the five weeks I have invested.
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I can relate to a lot of this. I am an 'emotional' eater (and a lazy one), but I struggle to pinpoint why.
ReplyDeleteI sometimes wonder if emotional eating is a learned response from childhood, as both my mother and grandmother have/had this relationship with food.
I know what you mean about becoming vunerable and showing weakness. Someone recently advised me to find a trusted friend, and become vunerable with them about the things that deeply trouble me. She said "By becoming vunerable, you're protecting yourself".
Which... didn't make sense initially, and I'm yet to really test it out (not brave enough yet), but I think that by having someone trustworthy knowing of your emotional concerns, you've got someone on your side, and often ready to lend you support and love when you most need it.
By the way, I like reading your blog. It has a feeling of raw honesty that compels me to think.
I think you are right. You need to trust someone. I was talking to a friend recently and she said that some people probably can guess why was being an emotional eater. So, sharing it would not be knew to the people who already know me. It would be new to those that don't. I think there are several reasons why I became an emotional eater and I definitely have pin pointed the most recent issue that caused a wave of eating and a lack of doing on my part.
ReplyDeleteThank you for your comment about my blog. I hope that as I can share and help someone along the way. In turn, someone can help me. I know this road to weight loss is going to be a learning process, especially if I want to change my life.