a fork in the road

OK, OK, OK, I know I said "The word CHANGE will have to be in my weight loss journey always". "It requires you to constantly juggle all components of weight loss and modify them on an ongoing basis." But, I did not actually think I was going to make changes right away. I did not know how I would react to certain changes that I did not want to do.

So there is a fork in my road. One way is the way I am moving now. Slow, steady pace that gets me where I want to go and the other way is a new road, one that I have never taken. It is a road that I am afraid to venture. I can't take any passengers with me because it is a decision I have to make on my own. The biggest change in the new road to my weight loss is getting out of bed almost two hours earlier. I am NOT a morning person. I have plenty of reasons why I should not go down the new road. No, complaints (well not at least in my mind). Do I have to? According to my trainer, it is more efficient, but he is not forcing me to. It is my decision. What will happen if I do not? Seriously, some decisions are becoming more difficult. I think about the people I will disappoint if I do not choose the new road. Can I turn back if I do not like it? Or more importantly, am I a failure if I start and then do not finish? These along with many more questions are running through my head. I have to make a decision.