Wow! My relax state of mind and body was out the window today as I started back to work. I don't know if I mention it in the past, but I was definitely a stress eater. There had been many times were food was relief, especially if I was at home. The bag of chips or the cookies on the shelf were so comforting. I justified having not just one or two, but several servings of three or more. I try to go back to that place now. Yes, I liked the food. Yes, it tasted good. Yes, I deserved it. The when I finished eating, I felt like the food replaced my stress and I could push issues aside. Never did I worry about the calories, how much weight I was putting on, or if I was eating just to eat. It felt safe to me. So I did I handle today. I kept busy as I felt tension throughout my body. There was no desire though to stress eat. I could have dug into the goodies at the work table, but I walked right past them. In the past I would have indulged in a treat or two. Not this time. I dealt with the intense schedule and every time I felt tense, I got up and moved. I walked around the school, stretched my legs, or found something to do other than sitting. That was a huge difference for where I used to be.
The best thing about today was the compliments. Yes, people are finally noticing the weight loss and I feel reinforced for all the hard work I have invested. As the new year starts I have to be proud of the 40 some pounds I have lost and keep my mind focused on the other 130 more to go. The changes in diet seem to be working although there are a few foods I can not tolerate. Greek yogurt for one. It makes me gag. I tried it with fruit tonight. While the taste was a little better, it was not great. The taste is something I will have to get used to if I decide to continue eating it. When I came home, I was ready for my workout with my trainer. It released more tension and I actually felt like I could go for an hour more. -
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