off the road

Ok. I was asked "what happened?" I told the doctor that I went skiing and managed a triple flip, but when I landed I hit my ankle. He was impressed. I laughed and said I was just kidding. I couldn't actually tell him the speciifcs except that I missed a step on my stairs because of my vision. How sad is that? One little slip and I have ruined the momentum. All I could say to him was "please don't say it is broken!" He laughed.

After sitting in the ER for about a hour and a half, I received the results of my x-rays. I want you to know that as much as exercise is hard for me, I did not want to hear that my ankle was broken. Luckily, it wasn't. It is badly sprained. I am upset because now I have to limit my exercise. This reduces my training and work outs. My first thought this morning was to go to the food. "Well, if I can't exercise it is going to hurt my program. So it won't matter if I go after food." I can report that I did not. In a way, I think I need to have the experiences / emotions that made me go to food. I know I have had a few so far. The reason why I think I need those experiences is because I am retraining my brain to react differently. If I continue to make different decisions down the road when I have those feelings, then I won't associate them with food for good.

This is not the time for any kind of injury. I am not happy with the fact that I am loosing time. Why? I know that the exercise has been a crucial part in me loosing weight. Diet alone did not work for me and that is what I have right not. So, what does that mean. I am not going to be going down the scale. I have to sit back and watch the time pass. I don't want to though. I want to be up and running. If I do, then I can make matters worse. Why did this have to happen?