what do you think about along the journey?

I know that there are some people out there who do not care about the imperfections of others. I thank my friends who accept me the way I am as I do them.

The weird thing is that I have funny feelings about my imperfections. I do it to myself. I am worried about what hangs out of my shirt when I work out. I think about how uncoordinated my body must look when I am doing exercises. I know I don't feel comfortable wearing certain clothes out in public. Yes, even with the weight loss! I was talking to someone the other day and we were discussing what we would wear if we have the perfect body. I still couldn't see myself in a bikini whereas she could. How much of this is my conservative upbringing? How much of this is a self-esteem issue? How much of this is being comfortable with what I look like?

I do know this for sure - I am pleased with what I have done so far and I do not want to go back to where I was. This journey is hard and I am learning more about myself as I take it. This journey with family and friends has taught me a lot about others as well. There are truely some amazing people in my life!