scheduling time

I have been working out a great deal this last week, two times a day. It is a daily struggle to see where I can fit the next workout. I had not been successful in previous months because I was trying to fit in workout blocks over an hour long. It wasn't till this week I decided something is better than nothing. So, I have managed to sneak in 30 or 45 minutes and it has helped with getting exercise into my day. The only thing........ I am always hungry.

Can't sleep maybe I should go for a drive.

As I toss and turn in bed I am afraid of what lies ahead. Medical issues stink and I feel like they have got the best of me. At what point do I decide to have a surgery that would enable me to exercise. Should I wait until I have reached my goal or should I do it now? When I heard the news today I wanted to go to food and drinks for comfort. I have mixed emotions and all I want to do cry.

Crash! Boom! Bang!

It has happened. A detour. A huge fork in the road. Decisions to make that will definitely make me have to extend my deadline.

How long until the finish line.

I feel like I am racing against time. I have a deadline for my goal weight. What happens if I don't get there? What if it needs to be extended? I know that I am not a failure because I have done so much already. But, I would feel a sense of losing against time. Every day is a new day and it is hard to remain focused. All of us who have a busy life and do not have the opportunity to go off to some camp just to lose weight have to juggle the challenges that are put in front of us. I thought that I wouldn't have any challenges after being on this journey for over a year. The challenge are different, but still there.

When you are trying to do some thing that is truly difficult for you, you have really know that the fight is worth it. The fight is hard. You get banged up and tossed around. You want to get out of the ring per say and walk away at times. Your support during the beginning of the fight may not be the same as it is in the middle. That is where I find myself........in the middle of this weight loss fight. I know I can't go back and moving forward is the only option. It takes perseverance. It takes real dedication without excuses. It take time. It takes all I have to stay with it. Do I finish this fight I have with weight loss? How long until I am finished?

Where has the road taken me?

Hello to all and sorry I have not posted or been around to read how everyone is doing. It has been quite a while since I have blogged. There has been numerous events since October. One event, and most special, is that my husband and I celebrated our 25th wedding anniversay in November. Both of us were a hundred pounds lighter than we were on our 24th anniversay. We have continued our lifestyle, but hid a road block in December (something I will go into more detail at a later time).

The new year started with us refocusing on our goal and actually making a deadline to achieve it. It really puts things in perspective and makes us concentrate more on the things we have to do in order to meet it. Otherwise, we would have an open -ended goal and no real commitment to achieve it. Our boys continued to participate in the lifestyle we were now modeling for them. To date, our family has lost over 300 pounds. I am so thankful that we have come this far.

My trainer told us last night about some news about the numbers I knew he was taking. As you know for previous posts, I am a scale kinda gal. I wanted to see the scale moving. Sure, I paid attention to his measurements on a monthly basis to see if I was going up or down. What I never did was look to see how things measured out from the beginning. The first time I let my trainer measure me was in December of 2009. Last night, he gave me the comparison results from December 2009 to March
28, 2011. So, in thirteen months I have lost 38.75 inches. It didn't hit me until I was in bed. Where did three feet of fat go? It is coming off my body! I cried happy tears and so realized that, although this journey is hard, it is so worth it.

don't drive on that road that got you no where

These last two weeks have been extremely busy and I have found myself repeating a lifestyle that is not supportive of losing weight. The amount of work is overwhelming and I am not finding the time I need to exercise. It seems that the overload throws off everything from the diet to the sleep. I am frustrated and I need to work it out so that I don't drive down the road that let to me gaining weight. I need to get off this bumpy road and back on to the pave road that made the drive so much better.

change your mind set along the way

Well, I am still alive!!!!! The half marathon is over and my husband and I can say we definitely put out our best effort. During our training for it, where were averaging about a 19 minute mile. So, our goal was to complete it under four hours. The most difficult thing was standing in line waiting for your wave to take off as you are standing jammed packed in a crowd. I felt like I was going to pushed down to the ground. After twenty minutes into the walk, people were spaced out and you were pretty much setting your pace. By the seventh mile, we were tired, but knew we were half way done. We knew family would be there to support us about mile ten which was great because that is were you feel like you can't continue. My husband was slightly ahead of me. I was talking to a family friend who walked with me front load me on the road ahead. We did not see our trainer and I was sure that if he had come, he would expect us to do nothing but our best. As we approached our eleventh mile, out of nowhere, here comes our trainer. It was a total surprise (probably the way he wanted it). Anyway, he joined us and ran with us to the end of the marathon. Hearing that voice from someone that knows how my body feels and performs was encouraging. To think, last year at this time, it idea of walking a marathon was just a thought. Back then our trainer said we could do it. We were hesitant to believe we could. To know that the commitment was made to do it and we were all there at the finish line together, made this event in our life come full circle. This year has definitely changed our mind set. We went from "we can't do that" to "we can do that."

No matter how hard the road to your weight loss becomes, remember you can. There will be bumps along the way, but you can succeed.