back on the road as the journey, although never forgotten, continues

Okay, I am safely home from my very fun and relaxing vacation. Let me tell you something, I learned a great deal about myself these past few days in many different areas. The three main things dealt with what keeps me from moving foward, what I am going to do about it, and how I see myself.

The first thing was my exercising pitfalls. Before I left on this trip, it was always about when I was going exercise, exercise and exercise. Sure, I kept the other aspects of my journey in my head (food, rest, staying positive), but the workout consumed me. Why? I was told that I had a roadblock (no pun intended). I guess you can develop thoughts in your head that prevent you from performing well in your journey, no matter what it is. Some of the things I thought of even though they do not all relate to me were: "why would one think they can't do something, why would one sabbatage themself, what is one afraid of, why does one make excuses, why does one try and justify not sticking to a program, why does not one move forward, what is it that one obbessess over, what is one's attitude about what they are trying to do and are they really trying to do it." Each one of us is different. I we really want to figure it out, we will. For me, the pitfalls of exercising to the fullest extent rested in my fears.

Secondly, I realized that I have to change my way of thinking so that this journey can continue full speed ahead as I have goals to reach. I know it may seem silly to some, but I needed a plan. I usually just get up and do things, especially the things that do come easy without a game plan. But in order for me to beat this weakness, I have to have a realistic way of moving forward. I read a couple of informational articles and talked to my hubby. He gave me his advice. Now, I must implement my intentions.

The last thing was "I really needed a break from it all"!!! This whole healthier way of life and the daily stresses of life are always formost in my mind. Do you torture yourself? Soemtimes I do. I think about my successes, I think about what I should of done, I think about what I did or did not do, I think about my mistakes." My mind can be a boomerang of thoughts bouncing side to side and all over the place as I dwell on every little aspect of my life. No more!!!! I realized that is is toooooo much work. I am wasting gas. No wonder vacations are needed and much appreciated. I need to move on and if I do focus on something, it needs to be my visualization and conceptualization of how I see ME as a better person.