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Thursday, July 7, 2011

I am parked!

Well, I went to the doctor today and it looks like I am definitely having surgery. He has taken me off work. We had a long conversation today and I don't know where I could have miss understood him. Apparently, I should have not been exercising to the degree I was since I was diagnosed officially with anemia. My symptoms have existed for a while, but I really didn't think that I had a medical issue until labs were done on me. Anyway, until I have surgery, I can walk. Yup, that's about all. Not an efficient workout, but I guess it is a way for me to keep moving. My recovery will be difficult for the first couple of weeks. I am going to try and blog each day to help me get through this.

Last night I did not sleep because of pain and my body could not regulate body heat. I was miserable. I managed to work today and get through my last work out with the trainer. It was no means intense. When I got home, I cried. I think all of this is eating at my emotions. I can't let this get to me. UGH!!! I told myself when I first started this journey that I needed to do this by myself ..... no surgeries. If I so much regress, I am see will see myself as a failure. I know I should not, but I will be taking two steps backwards. Guess what? I don't do backwards.

1 comment:

  1. You won't. Remember it's about the big picture. Don't think of it as "I NEED TO BE DONE BY...." Your priorities change in life. Realize that all you've done has helped you without a doubt and things could have been much worse. YOu will succeed. NEVER, EVER, give up or think about giving up! You are already a success and a hero for all of us that look up to you.

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