another check point

Well, yesterday was it...weigh in and measurement time. I had no weight loss. I am still at 241, but I did lose about five inches off my body. I have taken time to read some of the blogs I follow and there has been common topics we all share. The one I want to address today is about not seeing the numbers that we want to see when we get on the scale. It would so nice if we could just tell that scale what it should read for that day! When you have done well on your meal plan and you feel you have done what it takes to lose weight, you expect to see good numbers. If good numbers do not happen, how do you feel? Disappointed? Frustrated? Sad? Unsuccessful? I think emotions hit us, especially me. What do or what did I do with that emotion?

The biggest emotion that hits me is failure. I know that might sound strange after all I have accomplished. But that emotion is one that got me here in the first place. When I was hard on myself for things I did not do, I ate, and ate, and ate. That is not what I do now. It is hard to stay focused during this time. We have to!!! I have to write this because it helps me work my way through it and hopefully you also.

Yesterday I had to think of how long it took me to get here. Here it is! I had this pattern of reaching for food for about the last 22 years. Now, I am expecting it to go away instantaneously. How foolish of me? It can go away, I just have to retrain my brain.

I know it was only a two week period, but knowing I did not get what I expected for those two weeks drives me crazy!!!!!!!!! So what is my plan? I have to get up and continue. The meal plan has to be followed and the exercise needs to be there. I have to know that this battle is one I put out there and I have to finish it.

Question - Do you think that we become our worst enemy as we go through our weight loss journeys?