How did I let myself go?

Reflection time!   I am trying to determine why I gained so much weight.    When did I stop thinking about myself and how I looked?   Was everything I did worth it?   I may never have all the answers.  What I do know is that I am the answer.  The answer to the question "who will stay determined?', "who needs to created a lifestyle change?" "Who is now taking the time to put herself first?   All my life I thought about helping everyone else that I forgot to take time for me!

Engine on fire!

I worked out so hard, I ache all over and I can't sleep. In my head I have to keep saying, this is all worth it!

On the road again!

How many of you had a New Years resolution to lose weight? Forget about last year and get back on track! Get your mind set, develop short term achievable objectives, and then reinforce yourself when you meet them. Remember that this is a hard battle, but very doable! This is my second week into my lifestyle change and it feels wonderful! The biggest change I made so far was being prepared. I know what I am going to eat ahead of time and my meals are packed. Do you want to know how much I have saved by not eating out? (Ouch, it was a lot). There are a lot of people who tell me that protein shakes taste nasty. To be honest, the first couple of tries were difficult. Once you find the right mix of ingredients that your taste buds welcome, then they are easy to drink. I usually put a couple of nuts in my shake to get rid if the chalky taste, We all can do this!!! Get your lifestyle countdown ready. Week 1 of 2015 done and only 51 more weeks until one year of new possibilities is done.

Off the road!

Wow! It has been so long since I have posted on my blog. Through my wait loss journey, I have had many ups and downs. It appears as though I have failed. For all the times I did not want to diet for fear of failure, I can honestly say it came true. Disgusted to say the least. I never thought I would have ever gained back weight I had lost. Weight I worked so hard getting off in the first place.

What is wrong with my starter?

Oh my gosh, I can't believe how hard it is to get restarted. I have been away from my trainer since The beginning of July. It has been three months since I had a really great workout. I miss those training days even though I was so from doing them. My little walks or short periods of exercise do not equate to what I get in a half hour of training from my past trainer. Why is it so hard to me to put myself through the intensity he put me through. That is one reason I wanted to go to a trainer. The guidance I received was helpful and beneficial No my progress is very, very slow. I haven't lifted ant weights yet. I am scared to, but I know it is something I have to do.

Have I lost my way?

Well, I have had my surgery and I am slowly getting back to working out. I can't believe how taking time off can make a simple walk feel difficult. The drive to lose weight is still in me and I know I have to continue my journey. It is just I feel like my train derailed. I know everyone has their own lifestyle change plan. I support the different options people are implementing in their life because they are on a healthier path. But what happens when the plug has been pulled so, so unexpectedly. Well, that is what has happened in my case. My plan, my support, my guidance from someone I respect so much is now gone. I believe it is because I had to stop for my medical issue. I was loyal to the framework presented. Now I am faced with developing another course of action or just quitting. Hey, I could stop and then have excuses, but that would mean I haven't learned anything in the last year. It will be hard developing what to do and my anger for the change will slowly subside. People think that I am a strong individual and I fight back to the things that happen to me in my life. I do, but I also have the emotions that some people may think are week. So, even though I have lost my way, it is only temporary. The road ahead will be the most difficult part of what is left for my journey to reach my goal.

the clock is ticking

In two more days I will be having surgery. I am nervous!!!